Saturday, January 7, 2012


1. Graduate College.
2. Stop biting my fingernails.
3. Have Courage.

I am a wimp. I do not stand up to anyone, do not stand up for myself, I have zero confidence in my abilities. I don't know when this happened, I think it was around the time I was supposed to go back to college for my sophomore but didn't, but FEAR has paralyzed me over the last few years. It's hard to even convince myself to get out of bed in the morning cause I'm sure I will fail at any task presented to me. Since I have lived in this puny state for so long I'm starting to notice how others just choose to overpower me because they know they can. I'm tired of it. Not happening anymore. It's not that I'm suddenly going to be a jerk to everyone, it's just that it's time for me to be happy-no longer a door mat.

1 comment:

  1. You come by it honestly. It is in the gene pool, I got it as well. Fear can be gripping. I have learned that because of it, I have missed much in life. It isn't easy doing things that I never had to do before. Often, I have no choice, I just have to do it, and realize, I am all I have. Having confidence, being courageous, has nothing to do with being a jerk, or unkind to people, it is knowing who God made you to be, and making friends with it. I love you!